whenever I feel the distance between an actual pianist and me after watching someone play Nocturne in C# minor by Chopin.
I want to close that distance so badly, and I always feel a lump in my throat. The problem is that that inspiration I have is fleeting. I don't practice after that, or I forget that I ever wanted to play it so beautifully or I don't care anymore. I think my heart rots when I feel this way.
