Raining

It's autumn so leaves fall, and land everywhere. On lawns, on sidewalks, the street, etc. It's all really pretty and vivid, but what's special about this autumn is that it rained a lot in the last few weeks. That sucks because I had to wait in the cold drizzle for the bus, but it's pretty damn awesome since I get to see leaves stamping the ground. They actually leave imprints and it made me think of the pleasefindthis blog. Yeah, I'm getting obsessed. What else is new?

I failed my Physics unit test. Which means I'm failing Physics. I can't seem to care about it that much though. If this happened, what, two years ago? I'd be close to tears. Now, I just feel nonchalant. It matters since my mother got pissed at me. I was disappointed in myself, too, just not as much as I thought I would be, or should be. Something is wrong with me. It's probably because I'm just so sick of comparing myself to what I should be like that I just don't care anymore. Sigh.

Yeah. Also, I get really annoying when I'm whiny, which is around ninety percent of the time. My voice gets really high-pitched and it's hard to tolerate even for me. Especially for me. As cliché as it sounds, I hate my life. But not for what's happening, more like for what I'm making it be.

Rational Expressions

Try to express yourself rationally. You can't. No one can. That's why when everyone realizes that in functions, it's so much easier than in real life, they're shocked.

Watch it fester

You're defending my best friend and I'm defending mine. But I can't help but wonder if who you're defending is actually you.

I also find it extremely suspicious that the day she says that you like me, you start acting like it . You were perfectly normal before. Now, you're not.

I don't know if you're unsure or what. I was sort of pouring my heart out to you though. You suck.