Raining

It's autumn so leaves fall, and land everywhere. On lawns, on sidewalks, the street, etc. It's all really pretty and vivid, but what's special about this autumn is that it rained a lot in the last few weeks. That sucks because I had to wait in the cold drizzle for the bus, but it's pretty damn awesome since I get to see leaves stamping the ground. They actually leave imprints and it made me think of the pleasefindthis blog. Yeah, I'm getting obsessed. What else is new?

I failed my Physics unit test. Which means I'm failing Physics. I can't seem to care about it that much though. If this happened, what, two years ago? I'd be close to tears. Now, I just feel nonchalant. It matters since my mother got pissed at me. I was disappointed in myself, too, just not as much as I thought I would be, or should be. Something is wrong with me. It's probably because I'm just so sick of comparing myself to what I should be like that I just don't care anymore. Sigh.

Yeah. Also, I get really annoying when I'm whiny, which is around ninety percent of the time. My voice gets really high-pitched and it's hard to tolerate even for me. Especially for me. As cliché as it sounds, I hate my life. But not for what's happening, more like for what I'm making it be.