I know that no matter what I write, it'll end up incoherent because I'm not even totally sure why.
All I know is that life is difficult and I hate him for making it more difficult because the tiny selfish things he does make it more difficult for me, and I already have my plate full trying navigate through my own neuroses without having to worry about satisfying his when he's not even going to do anything himself.
So yes.
I'm just going to further enrage myself dwelling even more about how he always leaves the dishes on the counter overnight, so then I'll have to soak them even longer, or how he crams the sink so full and won't do any dishes so that he's got no other choice but to put the on the counter, and they dry overnight. Because of course he's above washing the dishes, even though he has this foolproof method that he's carefully cultivated for five years.
So yes. I'm going to move on from his unwillingness to vacuum whenever he has a closing shift, or how week after week he seems to want to leave right when the store closes, so he leaves shit on the table, and doesn't count the cash or anything, and then life is more complicated for me when I have to open and prepare for a party.
There is absolutely no point in going over each excruciating detail, every single one of his inadequacies, and self-indulgences, because if I am too descriptive, I will just stir the pot even more until my feelings boil over and one day I actually tell him exactly what I think, that he probably has ADHD and severely needs medication, that making lists is a very useful thing to do, and that all of his little idiosyncratic preferences don't actually matter since either way, he's not going to be the one to actually accomplish the task.
Which is why I'm totally not going into any more detail.
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