hurt + resentment = hate

WHEN WILL YOU UNDERSTAND THAT I DON’T GIVE A SHIT? HONEST TO GOD. I REALLY, REALLY DON’T. YOU KEEP BITCHING AND BITCHING ABOUT THIS AND THAT. YOU KEEP HARPING ON ABOUT FILIAL PIETY, HOW I HAVEN’T HELPED YOU MOVE SHIT (WHICH I CAN’T) AND HAVEN’T PLACED THE SHIT ON THE SHELVES (FOR WHICH I DON’T HAVE TIME AND PLAIN DON’T CARE ABOUT) AND HOW I SIT AT HOME, USELESS, WASTING YOUR TIME.

I DON’T GIVE A FLYING FUCK ABOUT YOUR STUPID UNSUCCESSFUL BUSINESS. THAT MEANS I DON’T WANT YOUR STUPID SHELVES IN MY ROOM, I DON’T WANT TO KNOW ABOUT YOUR STUPID STORE-LADY GOSSIP AND I REALLY COULDN’T CARE LESS ABOUT WHERE YOU PLACE YOUR SHIT AS LONG AS IT’S NOT IN MY ROOM.

FOR YOUR INFORMATION, I KNOW I’M WASTING TIME. MY TIME. NOT YOURS. I DON’T LIVE SOLELY TO BECKON TO YOUR EVERY CALL. I DON’T EXIST TO SERVE YOU. I DO EXIST OUT OF CONTEXT OF YOU. THAT’S SOMETHING YOU NEED TO UNDERSTAND.

IN OTHER WORDS, PLEASE NOTICE THAT I HAVE A LIFE OF MY OWN. OBVIOUSLY IT’S NOT TOTALLY INDEPENDENT OF YOU BECAUSE I DO LIVE IN YOUR HOUSE AND EAT YOUR FOOD, BUT THAT MEANS THAT I’M NOT GOING TO BEND OVER BACKWARDS TO YIELD TO YOUR COMMANDS. THAT ALSO MEANS THAT WHATEVER MONEY I HAVE WILL BE SPENT IN WHATEVER FASHION I DECIDE.

YOU’VE GOT TO STOP TRYING TO BIND ME TO YOU BECAUSE AS MUCH AS I DO RESPECT YOU AND AS MUCH AS I DO LOVE YOU, I DON’T EXIST FOR YOU. I EXIST BECAUSE OF YOU. I CAN’T DEDICATE MY LIFE TO REPAYING YOU THROUGH FILIAL PIETY.

WHY CAN’T YOU REALIZE THAT I’M A SELFISH PERSON, BUT UNDOUBTEDLY A PERSON. AS A HUMAN BEING, SOMEONE WHO HAS HER OWN THOUGHTS AND FEELINGS. YOU CAN’T HONESTLY EXPECT ME TO DO SOMETHING FOR YOU WHEN YOU JUST PUT ME DOWN, DO YOU? REALLY?

I HAVE MORE SELF-RESPECT THAN THAT.

NOT THAT YOU’LL EVER APPRECIATE THAT. BUT IF IT EVER OCCURS TO YOU THAT I DO DESERVE RESPECT AS A HUMAN BEING AND NOT JUST BECAUSE I’M AN EXTENSION OF YOU (BECAUSE I REALLY, REALLY AM NOT) PLEASE TAKE ME SERIOUSLY AND MY OPINIONS TO ACCOUNT.

BECAUSE IF YOU HADN’T NOTICED, I DID WARN YOU YOUR BUSINESS WOULD MORE THAN LIKELY FAIL, AS OTHERS DID FOR THE SAME REASONS. IN FACT, ALL OF THE PEOPLE AROUND YOU WHO CARE ABOUT YOU TOLD YOU THE SAME. WHY DIDN’T YOU LISTEN TO US?

AND NOW YOU CONCEDE ONLY A LITTLE AND I UNDERSTAND IT’S A SACRIFICE, BUT IT’S HONESTLY A SACRIFICE YOU COULD’VE AVOIDED. AND YOU SHOULD’VE ENDED THE BUSINESS. BUT YOU DIDN’T. AND NOW YOU’RE FUCKING UP MY PEACE AS WELL AS EVERYONE ELSE’S. PLEASE, PLEASE COME TO YOUR SENSES.

THERE IS REALLY NO POINT TO YOUR BUSINESS. LEAVE ME THE FUCK ALONE.